7 days left...

dont know what to do,yeah ppl feel happy when getting married and feel enthusiast about it, but dont know la kind of weird..wish u tell me wat to do..

again im dreaming

thatday i dreamt of u teaching somewhere, seeing you but i turned away, really dont know what's the meaning..

dream again?

again after praying subuh and slept on sejadah, i dreamt of you wearing a full suit of Baju Melayu with the samping and songkok, gold..which is so nice that u look like ure getting married and u smiled to me, still nothing changed, and my feelings will remain the same..

a poem?

a cloudy evening..and a cup of coffee..what cud be more wonderful,..

27-02-2009

just came back from the school and also to auntie shop, photocpy da handouts for next week., huh so tired.. my eyes are getitng sleepier but my brain still working things out especially u. dont knw y suddenly thinking of u..maybe cos my right eyes twitched a lot today, i also dnt knw why. See again it twitched, im so mad at myself, then i felt so bad at myself, that i may have done somethng wrong ppl call it as infidelity. Yeah my frens said i am doing it right now..and now here i am, crying again. I felt so bad doing it to you when im supposed not to. And i felt so bad that i have to live with someone i barely knew him now which is nt my 1st option. My life as a bachelorette will soon end, ,and i will live with him forever and ever ..Huh wat a thought...i really wish can end this now, but how?? by wishing to die faster? Or wishing that i'll be given another chance with u..(which is nt possible), and be grateful wit wat i had. Sory dear, i've done whatever i could do , but nothing can stop me thinking of u., oh God, take me into ur arms, cause i miss u so much and im afraid i will go against u, plz...the day is coming nearer, wont u let me go this time, then i can stay forever with u... Huh again the tears seem dont know how to stop...

All da best to u dear...

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

light on..

think of it..

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn't be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there's no point in grieving
Doesn't matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I'm leaving

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it's late at night you can look inside
You won't feel so alone

You know we've been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don't know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it's late at night you can look inside
You won't feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we've run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You'll start my heart again
When I come along

Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I'm gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it's late at night you can look inside
You won't feel so alone