dream again?

again after praying subuh and slept on sejadah, i dreamt of you wearing a full suit of Baju Melayu with the samping and songkok, gold..which is so nice that u look like ure getting married and u smiled to me, still nothing changed, and my feelings will remain the same..

a poem?

a cloudy evening..and a cup of coffee..what cud be more wonderful,..

27-02-2009

just came back from the school and also to auntie shop, photocpy da handouts for next week., huh so tired.. my eyes are getitng sleepier but my brain still working things out especially u. dont knw y suddenly thinking of u..maybe cos my right eyes twitched a lot today, i also dnt knw why. See again it twitched, im so mad at myself, then i felt so bad at myself, that i may have done somethng wrong ppl call it as infidelity. Yeah my frens said i am doing it right now..and now here i am, crying again. I felt so bad doing it to you when im supposed not to. And i felt so bad that i have to live with someone i barely knew him now which is nt my 1st option. My life as a bachelorette will soon end, ,and i will live with him forever and ever ..Huh wat a thought...i really wish can end this now, but how?? by wishing to die faster? Or wishing that i'll be given another chance with u..(which is nt possible), and be grateful wit wat i had. Sory dear, i've done whatever i could do , but nothing can stop me thinking of u., oh God, take me into ur arms, cause i miss u so much and im afraid i will go against u, plz...the day is coming nearer, wont u let me go this time, then i can stay forever with u... Huh again the tears seem dont know how to stop...